Saya dan Kalian

"People change, only the story of them stay forever."

Masih terhanyut memori tentang kalian, beberapa bulan belakangan. Berseru, mengeluh, dan tertawa bersama menantang tahun pertama jenjang pendidikan baru. Ada haru, ada cerita, ada berbagi di antaranya.

Mata saya terpaku pada secangkir kopi di sisi laptop. Tampak guratan - guratan kecil di permukaannya, menyimpan kegelisahan untuk dirasakan olehnya. 

Kalian, saya, dan kita semua. Ibarat film 5 cm, mungkin sudah separuh mendaki Mahameru tetapi menyerah di tengahnya karena saling berpencar. 

Kalian dan saya. Ibarat Harry Potter, Hermione, dan Ron yang terpecah karena memiliki latar belakang berbeda.

Kalian dan saya, sekarang. Ibarat semua chat yang dilakukan secara virtual. Seakan - akan dekat tapi dipisahkan oleh jarak yang tak terdefinisikan.

Kopi saya sudah mendekati akhir ajalnya. Masih saja saya teringat tentang cerita dan henyak tawa di antara saya dan kalian. Sayang, kerenyahannya telah termakan jarak dan mengumpulkan ketidaknyamanan yang berbeda dengan dulunya. Mungkin bahkan tak pernah berpeluang untuk hinggap menemani sepi lagi.

Ya sudahlah, orang kan berubah. Iya kan? Toh, saya masih dengan bodohnya menunggu kekerabatan itu mekar lagi. Lugu ya, selalu percaya dengan sekecil harapan. Saya dan kalian.

"You may change for I remain the same. Don't worry, best people will stay together."

Women and Tranquility?

"Dan kemudian rintik hujan menari - nari di atas keramahan malam. Aku terhenyak. Kesendirianku tercarut rasa rindu. Aku, wanita yang menunggu"

Sulit untuk mendefinisikan jarak di antara satu - satu individu yang sama - sama saling melayangkan rasa. Klise ya. Anak - anak jaman sekarang, kalau nggak galau ya risau. Sedikit - sedikit disambungkan dengan hati, perasaan. Melankolis? Mungkin. Sedikit - sedikit terharu, membombardir setiap emosi yang tidak seharusnya diluapkan. 

Wanita, hawa, perempuan. Mahluk dengan hormon dan emosi yang kalau saya bilang unstable. Buruk? Tergantung. Jujur, saya juga termasuk dalam kategori mahluk ini lho. 

Sedikit - sedikit dikorelasikan dengan perasaan. Suatu yang simple bisa berkembang dan bahkan berevolusi menjadi double atau bahkan rempong. Padahal terkadang, kalau diselidiki dengan teliti semuanya hanya ada pada bagaimana kepala saya, kami, kamu, kita, mengatur perspektif pada satu hal. Satir ya, kesannya kita tidak mampu mengubah kerempongan tadi menjadi sesuatu yang lebih simple. Kemasan yang sebenarnya menyenangkan dengan kesimplean tadi justru lecek gara - gara kerempongan mahluk seperti saya.

Kalau malam datang dan pagi menjelang. Pikiran 80% wanita pasti melenceng kemana - mana. Bukan hanya wanita sih, bahkan lelaki di dunia nyata dan maya juga mengalami sindrom emosional di malam hari. Bedanya? Kalau wanita sih satu bulan sekali bisa pakai alasan 'siklus rutin' sebagai isu utama dari sumber kebetean mereka. Faktanya? Mereka, ah saya juga, kami membutuhkan afeksi dan perhatian yang lebih dari 'pukpuk semangat ya'. Aigo, wanita memang "looks like able to strengthen the others, but being vulnerable and fragile inside." 

•  Saya bilang wanita itu lebih bisa menggunakan perasaan untuk melihat suatu hal.  Sekeras - kerasnya wanita yang pernah kamu kenal, yakinlah dia mengabaikan setitik emosi yang ingin meledak ketika lelaki mengupas masalah dengan logika, pure logic. Ada ruang tersendiri di pemikiran wanita seperti kontak pandora yang berisi apapun yang sebenarnya. Itu sebabnya mengapa wanita lebih susah dalam membahas hal - hal yang hanya seperlunya dibahas, lebih cenderung eksplanatoris dan dapat bercabang - cabang tak menentu. "I'd say we do complicate things and we do it just because."

•  Memori wanita itu longlasting dibandingkan ingatan lawan jenisnya. Ada celah kecenderungan untuk memadumadankan memori itu dengan sensitivitas yang saya kira lelaki bahkan tidak paham mengapa instinct itu ada.

•  Wanita itu mudah mengabaikan rasanya untuk suatu hal yang dia rasa pantas untuk dikorbankan. Seperti kamu, misalnya?

 Jadi, masih berani hantam emosi wanita malam ini?

"They say keep it simple in order to settle. They must've never met most women."

Morning Story of Bakpia

Kamu dan saya itu seperti minyak dan air. Nggak menyatu tetapi berjalan beriringan. 

Ini yang membuat saya bertahan dengan kamu dan saya merasa setiap jengkal cerita kehidupan saya selama setahun setengah belakangan menjadi sangat menyenangkan.

Kamu tahu? Saya dan kamu itu  mungkin seperti bakpia. Bakpia? Tampaknya sih di luar sama, tapi di dalam beda. Surprising dan risky sih, tapi nggak tahu kenapa selalu ada kenyamanan dan excitement di antaranya.

Kamu suka tim bola warna merah, saya pun sama. Saya suka petualangan, kamu juga. Kamu bisa berpindah – pindah dan ku pun begitu. Saya dan kamu sama – sama gila dan kritis tentang hal yang sebenarnya tidak perlu dieksploitasi dengan kata.

Beda. Kamu bakpia keju dan saya bakpia cokelat. Rasanya nggak akan monoton kalo di makan bergantian. Mungkin banyak kesamaan pada hal – hal favorit saya dan kamu. Tapi nyadar nggak sih kalo banyak perbedaan di sifat saya dan kamu, tetapi saya masih suka membahas setiap alur argumentasinya.

Kamu membuat saya penasaran, jatuh, bangun, loncat, berkali – kali. Kamu membuat saya tersenyum ketika kamu bilang “yaudah sih simple aja, kenapa dibikin rempong?”

Ketika saya melihat kamu pertama kali, saya merasa seperti saya melihat refleksi saya di cermin, tetapi berkebalikan ketika bergerak. Saya ingin A kamu ingin B, banyak intensi mengalah di tengahnya, sedangkan banyak mimpi – mimpi di luar nalar yang sama – sama saya dan kamu tahu kalau itu semua berarti jika dilakukan bersama

Sekarang, saya dan kamu hanya harus menyelaraskan ego. Saya bahagia sudah menemukan kamu. Saya banyak belajar dari kamu. Saya banyak melihat diri saya di kamu dan di tengah – tengahnya ada perbedaan yang pada akhirnya mereda karena saya dan kamu sama – sama peduli.  

“I get what i want but I don’t get what I need sometimes. But you know what, because you are the one that I want, you turn to fulfill what I need. Overall indeed.”

p.s. dari saya, untuk kamu, manusia sawah, selamat menempuh uas ya :)

Maple Leaf

"A red maple leaf? Why?"
"It shows courage. It brings power. The symbol of beauty and yet mystery..."
"Is that it?"
"Nope, it's your favorite."

Like a maple leaf, you just fall down so fast but not to give up.
You're just being down to earth, down to land, down to the lowest level of reality.
Just like a maple leaf.
It's changed, after seasons. From green to yellow to orange and finally red.
You're just changed to be more mature and full of courage to go on adventure.
The beauty you barely see. But once they are blended with the wind. They are everyone's favorite.
The last day of autumn and the before beginning of winter. They'll come into humongous piles around the blocks, they'll lock the mystery, never let any tornado come inside.
You'll just adore it. You'll put your both eyes stick to the color, your favorite.
Only maple leaf.

Jenuh

"Ada yang bilang kamu hinggap di bilik - bilik antara keraguan dan bukan spontanitas. Salahkah?"

Posting ini dibuat dengan inspirasi yang sangat personal  di pembuka tahun 2013 ini.
Teman saya yang tinggal di suatu tempat merasa dia nggak ada di sana. Kalo bahasa kerennya sih does not belong there. Ketika pertama dengar, rasanya dia seperti menyimpan rahasia. Bukan. Beban malah. Sedih ya, teman sendiri, tapi tidak merasa cocok dengan keadaan yang semestinya dia merasa senang.

Teman saya ini, sebut saja Leyak. Bukan Leyak yang di Bali sih. Ya, ehm, Leyak aja. Leyak ini padahal pribadi yang menyenangkan dan dia senang banget bergaul. Teman - temannya banyak, so gorgeous. Salah satu anggota cheerleader yang notabene adalah ekskul terkeren, terbisa-membuat-cowok-cowok-kelepek-kelepek (yang ini agak lebai yah, maafkan-). Jadi intinya dia itu gifted, spesial. Kalo saya bilang dia itu sering banget nggak bermaksud melucu tapi justru sering konyol dengan sendirinya. Bahagia banget punya teman kaya Leyak.
 Sudah beberapa bulan terakhir ini Leyak tinggal di Yogyakarta. Kota pelajar katanya, kota dengan sejuta mimpi dan keindahan katanya. Leyak sudah menginjakkan kakinya ke setiap tempat wisata. Bisa dibilang keluarga Leyak yang di Yogyakarta adalah keluarga yang terpandang. Saudara - saudaranya juga keren dan menyenangkan. Anehnya, Leyak justru merasa lempeng aja di antara mereka semua. Dia merasa terasingkan. Kalo mau flashback ke jaman pre-kemerdekaan Indonesia, Leyak mungkin kayak Soekarno yang berarti banget bagi Indonesia dan salah satu tokoh yang gifted, tetapi dia merasa terasingkan. Tidak cocok dengan keadaan yang ada di sekitarnya.

Salah? Nggak kok. Wajar.
Setiap manusia di dunia, punya fase ini. Fase jenuh. Fase merasa nggak cocok di tempat yang memang seharusnya dia di sana. Kalo berbicara tentang salah atau benar saya kembalikan lagi kepada manusianya lagi. Yang jelas, manusia mungkin nggak memprioritaskan fase ini tetapi justru menghindari. 

Sedangkan Leyak teman saya ini, justru mengajarkan kepada saya satu hal. Dia menggebrak pintu ketabuan manusia lain yang menghindar dari kejenuhan. Dia tidak menjauh, justru mendekat. Dia mencoba mencari solusi dan dia bernyali untuk berungkap.

Saya juga pernah jenuh, kamu juga, kalian semua, kita semua pernah. Saya sering ketika sudah stuck ngerjain paper  kuliah tiba - tiba bingung mau ngapain dan memang nggak mau melanjutkan. Saya sering jenuh dengan rutinitas di perkuliahan yang memang terkadang membosankan kalau dilihar dari segi akademis. Nah, sekarang tinggal bagaimana kita menyikapinya. Kalo saya sih, maksimalisasi kejenuhan itu lalu meledakkannya dengan kesenangan dan tantangan yang mungkin ada.

Selamat menghadapi atau menghindari kejenuhan :)

The Story of Seoul

As you guys already knew, my second semester has been finished (well, the fact is the grades are not even out yet). Weeks ago before the semester exam itself, I had to face the reality that my journey to another travel will begin. I applied for a summer program which is also partial scholarship (the flight ticket is not included) for the summer holiday. And here we go, two days ago I touched Seoul down!

Seoul as part of South Korea is well - known with its crowd and modern buildings and technologies and sophisticated people that work professionally. First time I got in the Incheon airport was totally unimaginable. I just arrived and it felt like I saw all of those people that are tuned in the Korean drama or band. Gladly, me and Mbak Nisa (one of another UGM student that received the scholarship) got there with two humongous size of luggage. Oh, and just for info my luggage was overweight when they measure it at the local airport in my town Semarang. I was in safe zone though to overcome my not-very-good-situation by upsizing the maximum lbs of my luggage. And yeah, I made it safely from Jakarta - Kuala Lumpur -Seoul.

First day of Seoul

Seoul is a populated by nice people ever :) 

We were out of the bus when finally the bus speaker says something in Korean and then she says "Dongdaemun". To get there all you needed was taking the bus that the transport info center at Incheon suggested us to take. We stopped the bus and we had no idea where to heading. Looking at the map (which is all written in Korean), we were at the end of our hope. Our own journey was totally begun. We asked people around and they responded very well, they tried to find the most accurate information from their galaxy notes, tabs, or even the sIII which is like the most sophisticated one. Anyway, they were failed to give information. I think it was because of the one way communication, you know. Then, there is this old man or "harabuji" that came to us and spoke in English (finally!) He helped us and recommended a different place which he said was a lot better than the place that we booked online. He took us with busway for free and we reached the place. Although, issue came when we had to carry our super duper huge luggage on the stairs. We almost fainted over that, that was pretty painful, and definitely not gonna try that again. Anyway, we got into the place and it was very nice place with one room for both of us and the design of the place was kinda neat because it represents the old style of Korean house in the middle of the downtown. The "harabuji" left us and we gave him food to say thank's. The price to stay for the place was a lot more expensive than the one that we booked. But it was worth it for the free wifi, foods, and kitchen that we used. The lady that take care of the place or the "ahjuman" was very nice too. She'd help us if we found any difficulties (which means a lot).

We got pretty whipped out of the airplane and we got jetlagged, so after we took shower, we straightly went to bed for a couple hours nap. By the evening started to appear, we got up and took a little walk down there. Bytheway, our place was at Pi run dong. There were foods, markets, and shops around the corner. It was a very great place to stay. We finished our pretty long walk and I met lots of people got out at night and got drunk after worked. I think that's one of the common culture there. So, they would be done with drinking and hald-drunkly walking down the streets. That was kind of creepy though. Not like Seoul becoming unsafe. It was still very secured, however when you got that annoyed feeling by weird people around you, yepp that was totally what happened :)

Second day and next days of Seoul Journey

What would we say? Seoul is uh-mazing :)
We spent the next days ahead in Seoul. Visited some places that we could only see in movies before, like Tower, palace, museums. Even when we got into the "green bus" which is typical Korean buses and when we walked down to the small ally by the neighborhood seemed so Korean to us. So mesmerizing we could only say.

The foods are everywhere, though they are not that suitable for our tongues. Let's say the goods one include porks or any kind of things that we're not supposed to have as Muslims. So, apparently we just asked to every kind of vendor or street markets that sold the foods like real tourists "fish?" or often we asked with mimics of the animals. So funny and yet normal, I guess.One day we went to one place for shopping, called Insa-dong. Got so many stuffs and we met a guy who sold cheap stuffs to us and he even gave us discounts for almost everything. So awesome! Once we walked down the street and there were this man selling "dragon beard" food, it was like "kue mochi" in Indonesia. Anyway, this food is good and the way they attract everyone to look at him. He even knew some Bahasa Indonesia which were so making me and Mbak Nisa even more attracted to look at those.

Then we saw a lot of shops for make up and face with the Korean Brand, like Misha, The Face Shop, Etude, and many more. They are pretty cheap compares to the one that they sell in Indonesia. They offered several good deals that women cannot ignore at all. Anyway, haven't I told you yet that Korean girls in Seoul (and even boys) are so sophisticated in dressing? They dress up almost everytime and everywhere. You cannot find simple kind of style once you walk in the Seoul streets. One more thing that attract me the most is the stigma of Koreans who love about appearance, I'd say somehow yes since there are many many mirrors in every possible corner. Can you believe? You don't need to bring any mirror because it's Korea! :D

Last day of Seoul

It was a really great morning after a good sleep that we had in ahjuman's house. Everything was so peaceful until the birds that Ahjuman have for pets are still half-way-awake and did not do chirping at all (they usually do). So, we went into the kitchen and ate bread plus jam for breakfast. What funny since the first day we stayed there was the breads and everything that ahjuman kept on the fridge. It's weird somehow because people hardly put bread in the fridge. Well, but we use toaster afterwards, so yeah I could get along.

Then we spent sometimes in the several places to just had our sorta last walk in Seoul. We already figured out some stuffs like the bus that we should take to train station. Anyway, for the next four weeks I stayed in Daejeon, which was like the fifth biggest city in South Korea. It was like two hours journey with regular train (KORAIL), and one hour if you take the KTX (fast train). I chose the cheaper one, so I went on two hours journey. We stepped out of the Seoul by using train so we went to the station first. It was huge station full of great technologies and people. Many young men were in uniform for the military purpose training. Most of them are either done or almost starting the training, so it was not a huge shock when they met their girls there.

Seoul's street

ahjuman's pet: cute birds :3

A night in Seoul

Some words in Hangul :)

Street markets :D

Ahjuma's house :)

buildings everywhere

Incheon Airport

a shop by the street

me on the plane :)

murky bridge

red palace

a street at night

typical road in Seoul

SEOUL!

night time

the street

just the trees

me, market, and food <3

And there you go, my end of the story about Seoul. Many things happened in only few days. And obviously, more things happened in a month at Daejeon. I'll keep posting more and more. In case, you wanna read it.

Anyway, 감사합니다  and 안녕히 가세요 :)


Hanadia Yurista

Several weeks, ago: apology and getting busy.

Oh my God.

I feel like a total humongous fat liar, ever. 

Since, I already got the words to keep the blog updated and stuff. But it seems like I didn't make it right to release several posts that I should've posted in this half semester. Anyway, here I am, facing the summer paradise. The holiday atmosphere is here and the plans are scheduled (almost). Unfortunately, I have to make my summer productive enough to finally realize that I only have two weeks left and they are not even free. I have several "permanent stuffs" that are jotted down in my list and they are due these two last weeks.

Wait up, I haven't told you about what I will possibly do for my summer and why I call this two week as a phase, the last one to reach the real summer? The reason is the summer program. I already decided and ensured my heart and my mind and obviously my parents to turn my summer as an unforgettable one. Summer at college should be both amazingly fun and also creatively beneficial for your future. Thus, there I go, Korea and India. Two countries that are still part of the Asia, if you take a second to put a glare on your map or globe.

So, why Korea and India? Just so you guys know, I'm going there with two different backgrounds. The first one is Korea which is a summer program and is located in one of the town in South Korea, Daejeon. The program itself will be held in one of the university there. And yes, I will explain more by the next postings. They will totally describe about what I do there.

India, first of all. It's a pretty famous country in Indonesia, since years ago. Back then, people would watch Indian movies for hours and got attached to the emotions. I was that one of those people, anyway. Well, India is a decent country to go and a place where every friend that I have from the western part of the world usually will love to learn 'yoga' and such meditations things. But that's not the main reason I go for India. I'm going with AIESEC which is a global organization that include the professional and students as the members and work on the international path work. Anyway, the AIESEC provides the projects and from the countries all over the world. I was included now as a member in AIESEC UGM and regarding to the project aspect and also the time, my choice was finally made. I chose India for HIV projects which I think a pretty delicate issue nowadays.

And yes, I've passed those hard days to get visa done by time I had to leave. I've passed the hard (and yet still) to cope with the absence of some people that I needed to meet up. I've passed those very rough moments (well, I'm still) with the person that I adore. And, ohwell time will answer everything. But it doesn't mean I rely on the time, I have to use the patience and passion. Let's see how this journey is gonna end up with.

With love and virtual kiss,
Hanadia